To Hell with my Pride

Tonight I Wanna Cry
By Keith Urban

Alone in this house again tonight
I got the TV on
The sound turned down
And a bottle of wine
There's pictures of you and I
On the walls around me
The way that it was
And could've been surrounds me
I'll never get over you walkin' away.

I've never been the kind
To ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong
Meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough
To let go of my pain 
To hell with my pride
Let it fall like rain from my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry.

Would it help if I turned a sad song on
"All By Myself", would sure hit me hard
Now that you're gone
Or maybe unfold
Some old yellow lost love letters
It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better
I'll never get over you 
By hiding this way.

I've never been the kind
To ever let my feelings show
And I thought that bein' strong
Meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough
To let go of my pain
To hell with my pride
Let it fall like rain from my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry.

I've never been the kind
To ever let my feelings show
And I thought that being strong
Meant never losin' your self-control
But I'm just drunk enough
To let go of my pain 
To hell with this pride
Let it fall like rain from my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry.

To let go of my pain
To hell with my pride
Let it fall like rain from my eyes
Tonight I wanna cry...

It's evident enough that I'm down and depressed. People might say I'm "emo", but am I wearing black nail-polish, and mat-specs? I'm just being human. I don't slit my wrists or anything like that. I listen to music because sometimes, you want to get lost in the music.

However, the problem is that the music reminds me of you, so instead, I find myself being lost in you.

And when the music stops, I'm lost, not just in the music, but in this big wild world, because I'm lost without you.

To hell with what other people think. I'm just...I'm at my wit's end and everything's killing me. I'm not in the mood to go to school tomorrow because I miss my Secondary School friends and because I don't want to be criticised by the drama coach. I have lots of free periods; but my classmates don't have those periods free, so I'll be alone.

I don't want to be alone anymore, because you gave me a taste of what it's like to be not alone.