Feeling Soup-er.

Title's a reference to a t-shirt I just bought. Is nice.

It's the weekend once again, and I'm out of Tekong. I've gotten used to this feeling, of being free one moment, then chained the next; one life on the weekends, and then another on the weekdays. A hard transition, truly, but when you've done it enough times, as with everything else, you get used to it. You adapt, you evolve, and you move on.

Ask me whether I've learned anything, and I'll say I'm not sure. For sure, my sergeants have inculcated drills, field craft, technical handling, and other army knowledge into my head, but have I learned anything about myself? I find myself thinking, and questioning myself...have I grown? I've gotten slimmer, fitter, and botak-er, but that's about it. I've yet to reach that feeling of...achievement, victory...or perhaps it's another formless concept I haven't conceived of yet.

I long for inner-growth. I want to be more than I can become. There's so much potential in me, I get excited just thinking about what may happen next, and to what lengths I can bring myself to. They say that you reap what you sow, and I guess I'll follow this mentality as I go through army life. It's not a front, or anything of the sort, it's just a want to do the best you can, at all times. Like I did in Junior College, I'm going to chiong army, yeah.

Anyways, I'll just update you on how things have been going lah. I'm not sure how much of my army life I can divulge, but I can tell you at the very least that I'm coping well. The 5BX, CPT, AGR, 30-60...I've gotten used to them. Come next week, however, I'm not sure how I'll handle it. Field Camp leh. 6 days in the jungle, without phones, showers, toilets, proper food, and lights. I don't know what it's going to be like. I think I'll grow to dread the night, especially, when the chances of us getting tekan-ed increases, exponentially.

Ahh, I'll leave it here. Going to read manga. Booking in timing is at 6 today, which is horrendously early. Sigh. See you next weekend guys, I'll probably do a small post on field-camp :). Congrats to all those who did relatively well for their Os, and again, it's not about the results, but it's about what you do with 'em.

Another head aches, another heart breaks
I'm so much older than I can take
And my affection, well it comes and goes
I need direction to perfection, no no no no

Oh, and when will our heartbeats fall into two lines
And the click-clack of our boot heels beat out the same time
Oh, and when will your hand find itself in mine?
Oh, and when will your hand find itself in mine?

And though I don't know your real name
Your real age, or your shoe size
I will leave this bedroom chair
And this keyboard behind

And I will love you in reality and dreams
And I will love you in reality and dreams

And though it kills me to know
That when we are through
You go to your real lover
Who'll put real kisses on you

Oh well, an ex is about the best that I can do
Oh well, an ex is about the best that I can do

And so this lonely, lonely hull
Has no use left for living
After finding her love
In a heart so unpermitting

And I will die and never ever hold your hand
And I will die and never ever hold your hand

But I'll kiss my lips and I'll blow it to you
It'll be the last thing that I ever do
And wherever you go and whatever you do
There's a man underground that will always love you

Oh, wherever you go and whatever you do
There's a man underground that will always love you

Wherever you go and whatever you do
There's a man underground that will always love you

Second Lover
by Noah and The Whale

All The Zunes Are Fail

Goodbye 2008. You've been one of the most bestest year of my life, and I thank you for all the memories, friendships, laughter, and everything else that you've given me. All the good times and even the few bad ones will not be forgotten. Seriously, it's been such...a...blast. From beginning to end, I enjoyed myself.

Haha. Honestly speaking, I'm really not getting into the spirit of any holiday because of army life, so I'll just move on. Belated Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to everyone but me :'(.

On to other news! I was in camp the other day, and me and my section mates were super bored so we decided to listen to music. I took out my Zune, because I have the best songs, but to my surprise, it had no batteries, despite the fact that I had charged it only the day before. Come New Year's Eve, I went to charge said device, but I found myself stuck at the booting up screen.

I didn't think much of it, because as far as I know, I haven't been too careful with my stuff. Something may have just cocked-up inside; sooner or later, it'll be in working condition again. But apparently...I had nothing to do with the faultiness of my device, this time around! In an event now dubbed in the interwebs as Z2K9, ALL 30GB Zunes failed at the same time.



I don't know how to feel. I'm not pissed, more of amused, because seriously, wth. This is the epitome of epic fail, if I've ever seen one. So yes, laugh at me...the only one in Singapore whose interest was roused by this piece of news. Damn me and my aversion to conformity. I should have gotten an iPod...